That's all I ask

Am I being selfish for wanting you by myself when I can see that you are happy being with her? I sense that you are brighter when you got a text from her, a phone call from her. Even with all the things I did for you, I know that it is not enough. You are not that happy when you are with me. Should I back off? Why does it hurt so much? I clearly know that feelings can't be forced.

Please go to her. Don't come back to me. What are you trying to do with me when you clearly like her? I am still a woman with a delicate heart.

Maybe you don't realise this but you gave me hopes. I am sorry for slipping into the hole while going through this journey. I can't control my own feelings. I feel stupid and yes I am stupid. I should not have this feeling. I am sorry.

I hope that girl will treat you well.
I hope that girl will make you forget every misery you had.
I hope that girl will never fail to check up on you.
I hope that girl will make you happy.
I hope that girl can make you and your family happy.
I hope that girl can be there when you need someone.
I hope that girl can bring you out of the darkness.

That's all I ask. That's what I've been asking from the beginning. For you to get better and not to experience any darkness anymore. I want you to be happy. That's all I ask.

Unrequited

I am tired. Tired of being the lone wolf in the journey. Tired of being the only one feeling this way. I don't know when will this end. The unrequited things. Oh how I wish the word unrequited never exist but girl, this world won't work the way you want it to. Every day I try to find the reason. The reason for everything. Not just the ending but the reason of the beginning. Why would we met in the first place if in the end I'm the one being left behind. Alone. In pain. Forgotten. But boy, you need to know the magical thing behind this dark feeling. Seeing you happy even without me in the picture put me at ease. I just had to let this pain go. I just had to heal myself. Then I will be back.


But... will I?