Worth

You had given me enough assurance but why do I still feel this way? It's like back to when I don't know where I am standing in your life. It's like I'm just scared that everything you assured me disappeared. Maybe I am not that worthy anymore. I know it's wrong to assume things but I can't help it. The feeling of wanting to disappear from your life keep on coming. I just feel like going away but I know that will make it worse for you. Why do I feel like I am being trapped? I don't want to think about it but I can't help it. It became worse when I keep on dreaming about you. The vivid dream is not helping at all. The dream shows what I want to do with you, what I want to say to you. Sleeping is not something wonderful for me lately. You're not breaking me but I feel like you are. I am sorry